How important is it to believe in yourself? How important is it FOR SOMEONE TO BELIEVE IN YOU?
I think self-belief is very important indeed. That is the first stage to achieving your goals and dreams. Some might think being a dreamer is time wasting but really, dreams feel so good and comforting and isn't that what keeps us going?
Life is about having hopes and life without hopes is as good as being dead. The reason why we are travelling from one side of the world to the other stems from a crazy idea of humans' desire to FLY. I can't really fully credit a single individual for the invention of planes as many people tried over the years though the bragging rights did go to the Wright brothers. Oh how I can imagine people back then scoffing at the idea and laughing in their faces but had they not peservered, I wouldn't be here in another country and experiencing winter and no one would be travelling conveniently and witnessing the outstanding and breathtaking beauty of this world.
I've always believed in myself and I've always been a dreamer. Sometimes when I'm on my own, my eyes would glaze and I'd dream of things I've always wanted in life... I dreamt of having a high-powered job and being on top of the world...I dreamt of significantly extending my love, time and help to the poor... I dreamt of pampering my family of luxuries they've never had before...I dreamt of travelling around the world and meeting all the amazing people of different colours, languages and life stories... I dreamt of building a school for the unpriviledged kids who are deprived of education...I dreamt of thousand and one desires and wishes...I never stop dreaming...and I'll never stop taking steps to achieve it.
I do have my down moments. I do have those times when I just say down motionless and stare blankly at the ceiling for ages and let myself wallow in self pity. I cry till I couldn't cry anymore. After that, I pick myself up again and embrace life's challenges with a new attitude.
Honestly I've always felt alone in the pursuit of my dreams, more so now than before. Since I got here in Istanbul, my parents labelled me as useless and childish. They wanted something more conventional for me and anything unconventional which involves risk is simply stupid and and brainless in their eyes. Since then, I've always kept my dreams to myself. I don't share my dreams with my close friends anymore as they won't really be interested and we just seem to be going on different paths and it seems more and more apparent as time passes.
Sometimes when on one believes in you, it takes a toll on your esteem and confidence. Having support and beliefs from people who are dear to you can make such big difference and this is what you should remember. Take a look around you. Think of your loved ones and ask yourself whether you've supported them in their dreams and beliefs. It just takes moral support and kind words from your part but for the person on the receiving end, that means the WORLD to them, you can't imagine especially when they are slowly crumbling.
To L- an amazingly highly intellectual woman I really respect and admire, thank you very much for your email today. You got me writing this. I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for your moving email. Your belief in me springs up my will to achieve again and it certainly boost up my morale, drive and motivation. We all need that at a point in our lives and for me, I haven't been having the support I really desire for a long time and for YOU to be spending your time emailing me, getting me all teared up, means so much to me. God bless you and I look forward to you joining me here.
P/S - I think God added a dramatic touch coz once I read your email and feeling all emotional, this amazing inspirational lil fella appeared on TV and that's all I need to get my tissues out! Enjoy it.
Much love,
V
